kaylee is beautiful

i found the password to my mindsay account today in the back of my oldest checkbook. i was looking for something with my birthdate on it so i could buy liquor for davids birthday. that was kinda funny because i am 6 months pregnant buying liquor... anyway so i logged on out of sheer curiosity and discovered that i was an idiot. i read my older posts and i don't ever remember being that naive.  thinking the best of everyone instead of the logical truth seems like something i would never do. i guess that is something i learned near the end of my divorce.  discernment has become one of my best qualities, i think. baby is kicking a lot. it is super cool to watch.
anyway my myspace blogs are way cooler than my mindsay ones. of course i haven't read all of my mindsay blogs, just the first page, but oh man it seems like i must have been WAY young. i suppose if nobody reads these anymore then i am free to say what i please. haha, that could be fun. dangerous though, if anyone ever found it.
well for starters, on the things i feel free to say, i am totally jealous that david can show me he loves me by spending two minutes writing a note and for me to make him feel the same way i need to clean the house. i don't have a whole lot of time (i say that as i waste a half hour blogging...) so it kinda sucks that i have to put forth so much more effort. i don't want to complain about it because he is so worth it, but it kinda sucks to feel super loved and know i am not going to be able to make him feel the same way till i have a day off of either work or school. i wonder if he feels like i am not trying.  i hope it will be easier when i am not pregnant anymore. the pregnancy makes me ridiculously tired. i always feel like napping about twice a day. i know baby will be lots of work the first few months... listen to me i sound like an amateur.  screw sleep i will have a little coffee clean the house and make a fabulous dinner all while studying and preparing davids amazing birthday.  no sweat. or maybe i will call all that my WOD.  lol. heck yea.
ok gotta blow some more balloons and memorize some more ions!

v ok yall kaylee is helping me write so hope you can read between the liunes.!!!antyways the weekend afternext i'm lving again but not bve      for e i skydive  so holl a if ou wanna go k th is ish htoomhard so bye for now lovwe  yallj,

ima try 2 download a real pic for my profile. i did it on my myspace so i can probably figure this out

i am so tired of everyone telling me what i'm screwing up on in life. just shut up!!! ever feel like you might just have to scream at the next person who throws a negative comment your way? i'm so sick of people. i am extreamly easy going but lately all these folks are taking advantage of it. my friend shannon invited me to rodeo last night so i went to kick it with her and it turns out she just needed a ride to she could go be unfaithful to her husband. i just left her there. i loved hanging out with her cuz she is so girly and fun and she always tries to get me to do girly kinda things like go get our hair done and our nails done but she really is a bad influence on me. it not worth it. yesterday one of her friends asked her to get him some weed and she was begging me to drive her around to make it happen and i got really angry because she was trying to pressure me to do it. i'm a pushover but i'm not stupid. anyway we went to the gym and i took her back home so she could do her stupid drug deal. as far as i know she doesn't do drugs. maybe she just wanted to look cool or something in front of all the losers. i dont wanna kick it with her anymore though. i don't even want to be around that crap.